life's been pretty much the same this week.. be around my lil Ayden and always staying indoor..

thinking back, how frequent i used to hang out with my gfs and nite life... till now ppl are still telling that they can't believe i have not been socializing for 2 years, meaning no stepping out of my door to party or coffee or ktv.. haha.. except with my husband for a 2 hour movie or dinner..

I have my responsibility now... life is moving up to another level.. you can see how ppl move in and out in your life... Faithful ones will stay and the rest are just a stopover..

Had been pretty sad over the past few weeks.. sometimes i tell myself to be strong and brave yet sometime in the dark when i'm tossing in bed, i just get frighten.. not sure of what exactly but i'll tend to doubt about am i doing things enough for ayden and for my family.. so many stories and tales...

My hubby practically is busy with his exams for the past few weeks.. absolutely no time for me and Ayden.. have to endure is foul temper and ridiculas tantrums.. been a quarrelsome period... but as usual things will be better after he finished his stress..

i can forgive but i can't forget all those things said to me. To me, what you said, be it out of anger or what, must be something you had thought of it before, else what give you the idea of it to start the first word of the sentences??

I feel hurt... by alot of things said and done.

I just need someone who can listen and understand me.. guess given to my current life, there's no one... but myself and this blog of mine...