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ღ Monday, 22 October 2007

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i'd just found this on my lappy... think i wrote out to my fren but somehow its in my lappy folder...lolx..

my past complaint..

I can really really understand your feelings!..

me and my MIL too having probs...

when i'm doing confinement (which she as supose to do for me) in the end only cook for me.. i still touch water, bathe, do housework, takng care of baby 24hrs myself (without DH help)... which this i can bear cos she's ultimately not my mother... but abit unhappy inside..

another thing, she bangs alot of noises which causes my DS to wake up alot... -_-"

another thing she doesnt know how to ake care of baby!!..YET she is alays wanting to take care of DS herself.. which is a definately NO no no for me... she didnt even know how to wear pampers!!!!...omg.. feeding from bottle (as i have engorement for a few days so have to use FM) also DUNNO!!!...YET she still insisting and complaining in the house that she can help...SH*TY lor..

then one night.. supposing my DH should help me change my DS diaper after i fed him with BM... he insisted i should go sleep to get some rest since its already 4am in the morning... its raining fyi... then in the end i heard my DS scream and crying next door... i woke up find my DH beside me sleeping.. i was like shocked!!.. then the next thing is my FIL came to my door asking for diaper!!... WTF?!?!?!...wat happen cos my DS is screaming?!?!... then somemore why m FIL came to my door ley??..

i ran to the room next door...finding my DS crying deperately on the bed of my SIL and my MIL sitting beside him with nappy liner in her hands and diaper in the floor.. WITH nothing prepared to change my son's diaper... he's only 2 weeks old and half-naked...with howling wind and rain pouring outside with no windows and door closed to change him...

I super pissed...i carried my son back to my room asap.. super angry lor!!..what if my son got a cold?!?!....

worse thing.. when morning breaks, i went to the kitchen, seen my MIL dunno doing what lar, then she complain that last night my child cry so long in my room, saying we (my hubby and i ) should carry him at least..

i straight away give no face, but i said with respect and soft tone.. " no lar, mother he cry only awhile mah. not even 3 mins long. we changing diaper."

she then keep insisting he cried very long and give a very black face.

wah i see le buay tahan. i siad" you carried him to chage diaper , his cries is worse lor." she not happy liao, then say no lar...i told her that next time she wants to change right, prepare beforehand and close windows and doors at least cos raining.. then she gives alot of excuses saying she already told my FIL to go take diaper le...i tell her lor, tats too late for preparation.. you already took off diaper even with no new diaper around... wats next is later she went to tell my DH that she dun want to take care of baby anymore, ask him to take care himself… and the best thing is SHE START TO SOB IN FRONT OF MY HUBBY!!... wtf…

then my DH came telling me off lor say I say his mother..

then I explain myself yet he protected his mother lor…

the thing I angry about is he didn’t even care on the matter whether my son’s is well taken care of anot lor…ß this super pissed me off…

this is just one of it.. sigh there’s more… she damn hypocrite one.. sigh~~~~~

thinking back.. i find that how not good my MIL can take care of my child.. should i think twice again on letting her to take care????

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10:09 pm

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very tired...till now i haven got much sleep...yet my exams are next week...

i cant put my mind at ease when i have thoughts of letting my hubby and especially the "dunno anything" MIL to take care of my child...terrible arh...alot of things..so sian.. especially today.. i finally let them take care but then it was disaster...my baby kept crying and cant sleep (which normally at 10 + am he will) .. myhubby doing his stupid stuffs again on the internet and my MIL take care of baby..

first she took him out of the room and walk around the whole living room... saying wanting to make him sleep but then keep playing with him, taking photos...stimulating him to play!!..wah how to sleep if you are the baby..you sure want to play de mah... then he kept crying.. she still carry him walk around the whole house.. then go into my room and put him down to sleep when my boy's eyes are wide open!...so stupid cos he's gurggling and making eye contact of playing yet yawning at the same time... then i say carry him and coax him to sleep... my hubby and MIL insisted they put him on bed.. sTUPI*...

then the next stupud thing she did was , she go and draw the curtains!!..WTF?..i told not to and pull open back again.. i tell her dun cos baby dun let baby sleep in the dark, let him sleep , he can sleep (all the while is like this) and also to let him know its daytime.. then i left the room with him and MIL... after 5mins, i walk back, she went to draw the curtains AGAIN!!...ARGH~~~...she delibrately or what man!... F***...

so angry... cos everytime my baby with them, he cant sleep, always cry.. then the pissed off thing is that they keep saying, " baby see you then he cry" " baby only want mummy cos got milk" <--- rubbish and ass lor.. my FIL can make him go sleep, MIl sometimes herself carry him also can sleep in the day, hubby in the night also mah... WTF...blame me for wat... damn angry... if you cant make the baby satisfied and not crying, dun push the blame to me okie.. F***... you are and mother also why cant you know how to take care of baby then?!?!?!... only know how to push the blame to people... dunno then say dunno, dun say its becos of others...

i also 1st-time mother...baby only 2mths.. i also learning about him mah!!...F***...

now my baby screaming in my background and i cant go cos they will ask me to go study...

very pissed...............................

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10:08 pm

ღ Saturday, 6 October 2007

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10:08 pm

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No time for alot of things man..

sigh... BB have been waking up almost every hour for different matters.. so different from normal NB where they sleep and sleep soundly...

my mom said BB wants to play yet sleepy tats why...aiyoh...

then breastfeeding has been tough...one side of my breast spray out like mad whle the other normal...BB have trouble drinking from the left side cos it will spray all over his face when there's the 'let-down' after 1-2mins of sucking...por me have to lie back with him on top of me...lolx...

things between MIL and me are slightly better...but things can be sacarstic at times..."hidden' meaning...then my rs with Mike is so bland.. nothing to talk abt even if there's time we would sleep...cos no time arh to sleep... black circles around our eyes...

MIL the usual dunno dunno one...everything also dunno...stupid...

FIL worse...he dun even know whats a beansprout pillow for...only know how to carry bb to sleep...

i let them carry yet less than 15mins they will give bb back to me..saying he wants to sleep lar, drink milk lar...cannot be ley!!!...i just fed him!!...they will find sorts of ways to give baby back to me...YET!!! they still complain they idnt see bb much...WAH LAO!!... headache...

My hubby starts to find faults with my mom in front of me now..think because i complain his mum so he also complain abt my mum...HAHAH...funny man..anyway this week i had went back home for dinner le!!...went back twice..

OMG how i miss my mum's cookings...fantastic man...drools~~

My MIL always just cook soup and leave a plate of steam fish for me...thats my dinner...everyday...sigh...back to the 'everyday' food thingy where she will cook the same things over and over again....wah so scared i comment again, she'll cry lar or whatever lar...so this time round whatever things i just keep to myself...my stupid hubby will go tell her everything!!..yes everything under the sun...like no sense of thinking what to say or what not to say...nothing can be kept among ourselves..NO PRIVACY....

the HDB haven come out with new batch of new flats ley.... i'm so eager to move house man...sian to stay home and see his mum everyday...trying to be 'happy'...

BB's getting fatter...5kg now i think cos last week is already 4.58kg.. then this week he super big i can even feel and see it...lolx...his clothes can no longer fit so have to move on to new batch of clothes le...faty bumbum...

took many pics but lazy to upload and another thing no time to upload cos its super time-consuming lor... hehehe....think i have to go find someone to 'rub' my injured right wrist...cos bb getting heavy i cant carry him long...tsk-tsk...my hubby have been saying for weeks to bring me go see doc but didnt ley...

actually quite pissed...he will do things for me slowly and dragging...but when his mum ask him to do he will do immediately...shit lor...even bb's stuffs also dillydally...sighsigh ... no rest for me manz...

even cry for a few nights by myself cos i too tired le...bb cries i cry...*sob*...but now bb wakes up at night for 3/4 hours later so i have time to sleep...rather than 1/2 hours... lets pray he'll learn to sleep thru night longer fast fast...hehe...

been worried abt another thing...my supply of milk now is it enough??..cos recently i find that he can drink for 100ml bottle and then can cry for milk more frequently le...then i scared i pumped out ones no enough for him....how arh? exams coming le....30th , 2nd and 9th ... sigh...hope i can complete by next mid-year.... i've got so many plans for Ayden and me... hmm...

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10:07 pm