ღ Tuesday, 7 August 2007
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My mum got dengue fever.......hospitalised yday night.. sigh~ and i cannot go see her at all... feel abit fustrated... she's abit upset cos she cant see baby if i due anytime from now...the night before... super upset in the middle of the night.. he smoked heavily recently... and i'm very disappointed... even thou he kept saying he would do something about it but i'd give him almost like 1 yr... baby's even coming soon and yet he's still at 5 or maybe more sometimes... his frens are OMG super smoker... yet encourgae him to smoke...not to say i push the blame to them lar but pls lor... dun jio him lar!!!.. he's gonna be a father ley... anyway heard his another fren who wife also preggy with me the same time but less a mth, manage to quit smoking!!... sigh..i felt so useless as a wife and mother to my child for not able to persuade him to quit... why other people able to but not him... i cried very cham in the middle of the night, smelling his stupid cigratte smell... was disappointed... very... i told him that he shall not take care of baby when i'm doing my confinement... and i'm pretty firm abt it... even thou i might be weak during that period of time but i do not wish anyone with smelly hands and breathe to touch my Ayden... this include my FIL... YES!... i will make sure of it... i think i had do my part of not nagging and leaving this type of decision to him... he's an adult and pls be responsible for your actions... even thou my MIL always say me that i didnt tell him off to stop but i think its better for him to do it himself...i had to endure the look of angry MIL saying me like i didnt do my part as a wife to stop him everytime he went out of the house to smoke... sigh~~... tough!ignore his calls and his offer to send me to sch yday... very angry..anyway i had made up my mind on that... no touching of baby...today:Just came back from Kenneth's , and he told me my baby is gaining little weight only... maybe my placenta is not doing well on its job.. but still be going to checkup at Mt A for another type of scan... he predict that i will be dueing next week!!!!...omg... jus now checked that i had start to dilate le... maybe 1 cm...eh... i scared.. no wonder i felt pain every now and then... sleeping is super tough cos i CANT sleep with the pain... sigh....maybe he's gonna induce me if baby still not growing... or i dilate even more... he say these few days i might start to bleed... or even have the possibility of breaking water which is LABOUR time... eh... i freak out the moment he told me this.... Mike is getting cold feet too... even thou he often say he's ready but this time he admitted he is very excited!...haha... most probably baby's comng out nxt week end... !!!!! ah~~... i must jia you man...cannot breakdown or freakout last min which i normally will if i get too nervous... *tremblePray for me guys.... *glurp*
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