Today wake up as late as usual.. 11am..

well so sian lor, early in the morning, 'someone' ask me about my appeal thingy AGAIN!!...and asking if i had told my mum yesterday (which i had told her wait till appeal result out then i will nreak the new to my mum)... My stupid huby go and big nouth tell EVERYONE in his family the day i find out my results.. the exact day which i felt so worse and down... URGH~~~... i tell myself its no big deal la, say lor, they will know eventually... but hor inside me i was super bu shuang.. why tell everyone and everyone keep askin why like that, why like that... ARGH!!!... can't they feel i'm super sad and can studdup anot!!...but still i kept it inside my heart... i didnt tell him abt my hard feelings and upset cos i dun think he can understand how exactly i feel... cos i never had FFFFFF lor!!!!!!....*sob*sob*... say already i felt sad again now....sigh... :'(

then 'someone' kept talking about everyday from the result day till now lor!!!!... YES its true... i'm pissed right now cos i had enough.... decided the only place to say things out is here....sobsob....why cant she just shut up and leave me alone abt th matter...even thou you are concern but please lor, people is feeling damn bad le yet you still say say say say say....KAOZ!!... if its my mum , i would have told her off to shut up man.....URGHHHHH~~~~...

then somemore everyday talking about her stupid work place this and that... cant cope with it....duh.. only 2nd day lor....doing cashier job at PRIMA supermart nearby our house mah...everyone in the family already say to her a thousand million times...

we: "take things slowly, new things need time to learn de, cant expect you will know it the next day mah.."

she: " i cant ley...so difficult"..

we: " did they pressurize you like you have to know by when?"

she:" no.. but hor i cant remember ley.. then i dun dare to ask.."

we: " ask things you are not sure...they wont pressurize you lar cos you are new.."

she:" aiyah...i like very slow ley.."

we:" dun like the job then you quit lor...give it a try till this end of the week bah.."

she:" yah lor yah lor.."

then after some time later, the conversation repeat again...she'll start off by saying " eh, what you think huh?..should i wrk?.. only $4/hr"

please lor, we already say dun work if you dun like...now its not a mater of $$...the problem is you EVERYDAY at home grumble nothing to do then keep saying want to find job and say " a human cannot say dun work lar...must find work..cannot be lazy.." blah blah blah....so we all gave our support to every job you find...

first i find a tea lady job at a law firm which was super easy task job lor...but the thing is she requires to go work from 6.45am to 6pm. Byt he time she reach home will be ard 7pm... but $ is $850/mth and benefits of 14 days leave, dental medical, trips like to Aussie at the end of the yr, etc.. <-- i find for her one lor on the webby... then she work for 2 day she quitted cos the hours thingy... this thing she complain that she cant cook for my FIL and the rest in the family then long hours then far (raffles place mrt) then only $850/mth... -_-" then guess what.. she uses me as an excuse of not working...come on... she say i giving birth soon then have to take care of baby blah blah... i find this is an excuse lor... i'm at home cos i defer my studies til next yr.. yes its true that someone helping me is good.. but she not like helping me the whole thing lor...she say she wanna find a part time and then help only when she free... please lar...isnt it the same as not helping...you only cook for me... thats all... then say dun want to work that law firm job... then now you grumble abt this job which you find yourself... the question is : now you find a job then another moment you say you quit cos help me with baby and stuffs... then complain that now i didnt work and she's out of work so income lower..then now work for a job lower $ than first job, then contridicting saying $ is not a problem now for the family...????????????????? what~~???? -_-" PLEASE give my ears a break....!!!...give my brain a break!!!

okie i complain too much already...