Crying now.. had a terrible time enduring my small heart.. i wish i can stop being so weak...vunerable... why things turn out unexpectedly?? well maybe things that u hated most will come and haunt you... I've haven been experiencing coldness since a long time ago... its not about being there next to you...its like so near yet so far...makes me remember how i had been experiencing for that unforgetting times...

i hate this feeling...I'm a sensitive girl...cos i dun want to go thru another time...little bit of things that happen i would get frighten and scared...i cant stop the way how my heart is trying to protect myself...all i can do is to cry...crybaby you would say...it may be a small thing to you but to me, because the person or thing is important therefore every single thing i would take it to heart...if not i wouldnt even care...or even let alone cry... guess i cant explain myself about my inner feelings...when things happen i would be lost of how to handle...outside i may seems cool and calm and stern...

Whats the world inside me?..very weak and trembling and so so so afraid of whats going to happen... whats happening to me?..i wasnt like this before...i thought i had got stronger, isnt it?...But why is this person makes me so afraid...just like that guy??..is it because they are the same???...i'm always trying to be my best in front of them...when i think back i felt i'm a weakling...

aiyah i dunno lar...

(slap myself)